Randy 'The Ram' Robinson

“You know, if you live hard and play hard and you burn the candle at both ends, you pay the price for it. You know in this life you can lose everything you love, everything that loves you. Now I don’t hear as good as I used to and I forget stuff and I aint as pretty as I used to be but god damn it I’m still standing here and I’m The Ram” - Randy ‘The Ram’ Robinson

As we already know, both the movie and the song are superb and complement each other in a way. It taught me alot personally about walking the path that we choose, how to straighten back our seat in bumpy roads. It’s about faith, it’s about getting up after receiving blow after blow. If you die, at least you die trying.

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Rain softened me
It poured hard out there
whilst I’m here,
wrapped in four-sided walls

I miss seeing those droplets dripping down, now that my room has no window.
Just another rainy day short-note..

A poem composed by Cao Cao, the late Wei-ruler in the Three Kingdoms period. Notice the harmonious perspective of Cao Cao, despite his villainish interpretation. I often compared him with Oda Nobunaga, for they share such a unique yet cunning charisma.

 

To My Wine (對酒)

Author: Cao Cao
Translated by:  Lady Wu (shunsangxiang@hotmail.com)

對酒歌,太平時,吏不呼門。
王者賢且明,宰相股肱皆忠良。
咸禮讓,民無所爭訟。
三年耕有九年儲,倉谷滿盈。
斑白不負載。
雨澤如此,百谷用成。
卻走馬,以糞其土田。
爵公侯伯子男,咸愛其民,以黜陟幽明。
子養有若父与兄。
犯禮法,輕重隨其刑。
路無拾遺之私。
囹圄空虛,冬節不斷。
人耄耋,皆得以壽終。
恩德廣及草木昆虫。

To my wine I sing
of the times of peace,
when officers shall not make calls at the door.
The ruler is bright and virtuous,
His ministers loyal and trustworthy.
Abiding by propriety and courtesy,
The people have no cause for lawsuits.

From three years of farming, nine years of stores,
The granaries overflow with grains –
While the elderly have no need to labour.
Rainfall is abundant and of proper time,
The myriad of crops a great harvest yields.
From the highways are pulled back mighty steeds,
Their manure used to fertilize the fields.

From dukes down to viscounts,
all love the common people,
demoting the unworthy, raising up the good –
As fathers and brothers they nurture the people.
Those who defy the law
are punished according to the severity;
though none is so selfish as to take roadside property.
The jails are all empty,
and on Solstice day no sentences are pronounced.

All live to eighty or ninety,
and pass away only of old age.
The ruler’s compassion touches all creatures equally.

Jocie Guo

Watch the MV on YouTube here

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Love is a love song in your eyes. It’s the literal translation of the title. Jocie Guo’s sentimentality enhanced the song beautifully, while Nicole Wang’s voice gently amped the classic touch of the song. Both versions are very beautiful and mellow. This particular song touched me deeply ; left me vulnerable. Although I can only understand a bit of the lyric, the seductive melody itself is enough to made my mind wander. A miraculous song indeed.

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a scene from byosoku 5cm

Listen to One More Time, One More Chance here.
Download great wallpapers from 5cm official website here.
Wikipedia link about the movie.

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I remembered watching this anime back then, and I’m listening to its soundtrack, ‘One More Time, One More Chance’ whilst writing this piece right now.  Masayoshi Yamazaki’s vibrant, rich voice never failed to touch my inner-self and render me vulnerable. The lyric was briliantly composed and companied the melodies beautifully.

I’m always searching, for your figure to appear somewhere
On the opposite platform, in the windows along the lane
Even though I know you couldn’t be at such a place

It’s really painful yet solemn, hope is.

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 “Anyone who says sunshine brings happiness has never danced in the rain”
– Anonymous.

 

Rain poured down endlessly this morning, soaking everything, including me, my breakfast and my rusty bicycle. A great way to start a morning if you ask me, it made you feel alive, like a brush accent that completed a painting.

After changing to my usual tee, I leisurely take out the small rattan armchair. I slug my back, trying to improvise with its firm measurement while my hands, as if had mind of their own, reaching for the nearest pack, gently put one between my lips, and covered them as the other hand light it.

I savor the rain.

According to my landlady, that armchair was left here for some particular reason. She once said that the chair is cursed, that anyone bold enough to sleep in that chair were never to wake up from it again. She oftenly cited that his dearest husband were one of its victim. If I had a pint for every breakfast, lunch, dinner, and a constant meeting with a heart surgeon, I might just fall asleep anywhere and not waking up from it anymore.

Familiar ringing had thrown me back to my rain-savoring. It’s her, I guess, since I only accept text messages from a limited list of human beings. My parents are long from gone since their divoce twenty-something years ago and I couldn’t remember the last time I had anything connected to them. My so-called friends only texts me when they’re in a pinch or similar situations. There’s only a handful colleagues that contacted me for advice or work-related matters.

And her.

How are you today?

Wet. I texted her back.

You must be enjoying your silly rain right now, are you?

Rain isn’t silly, your silence is. Sent.

And I waited for like five minutes or so, but there was no reply.

My Office Desk

Yeah, it’s messy, I know.

That’s how I wrestle through life everyday on certain days at my horrible lovely office, in that small brown cubicle near the water dispenser. All by myself.

People tend to pass me by from every direction, so I had the  chance to see their thought  from their expression. Some people are simply joyous, many covet the boredom. I don’t bother to converse as they do, I basically just smile and get back to what I was doing.

12 Desember 2008 (12 – 12 – 08)

Angka kembar, bagus.

Hari ini ada sebuah kejutan kecil yang sangat spesial (for me).. Hari ini aku mendapat komentar dari orang yang tidak kukenal sama sekali. Hal kecil bagi sebagian orang yang memiliki pembaca setia blog-nya yang berjumlah belasan hingga jutaan, tapi buatku ini adalah sesuatu yang spesial.

lalla, whoever you are, I offer you my deepest thanks.. Terima kasih untuk singgah dan meninggalkan jejakmu pada blog ini (and even better if you come back, one day perhaps..)

Here I am, selalu reluctant, enggan untuk menulis walau sekian juta impuls diatas sana selalu memerintahkan jemari untuk mengayun lembut dari satu huruf ke huruf lain. Thanks again lalla, you’ve destroyed the dam that held my impulse at bay..

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Oke, sebenernya gue bukan gore seeker, adrenaline junkie, atau buaya yang menyiasati wanita cantik untuk nonton film horor. Hanya satu kata representatif untuk event ini, EVANGELION!

Call me otaku, walau aku menderita pikun akut dan hanya serpihan Evangelion yang masih nempel, antusiasme-ku terhadap Evangelion kembali berkobar saat membaca screening schedule iNAFFF ’08. Actually Eva is not the only anime we’re talking here, there’s another one called Gedo Senki (Tales from The Earthsea) jebolan Gibli yang di-direct Goro Miyazaki. Dua anime tayang di layar lebar Indonesia adalah sebuah keajaiban, dan keajaiban tidak kerap kali berulang.

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Betul. Pindah adalah bagian dari hidup. Aku mengkategorikan sebuah kepindahan sebagai sebuah proses tumbuh dewasa. Bukan hanya blog ini yang telah bergeser kesana kemari berulang kali sampai jatuh ke WordPress, aku pun telah berpindah.

Pada awal tahun, aku pindah ke sebuah kos yang kondisinya lebih mengenaskan dari kos lamaku. Disanalah aku mengalami proses transisi dan kontemplasi yang hebat. Didalam ruangan 2,5 X 2 meter (yang sangat panas) itu aku banyak mencerna pikiranku sendiri yang prematur.

Sekitar awal atau pertengahan Juli, aku kembali pindah dari kamar kos transisi ke sebuah rumah dengan banyak ruangan. Detik-detik kembali berputar, bergerak, berderak, menuju suatu arah, yang sedang kucoba menerkanya.

Di tempat ini semua bergerak, dinamis, walau terkadang suka maupun duka saling tumpang tindih. NDS Lite-ku hilang karena rumah kebobolan maling, kemeja kesayanganku yang tak pernah kembali dari laundry, dan hal-hal tak terduga lainnya.

Terima kasih karena telah menemaniku selama ini, walaupun aku telah berpindah banyak kali, dan mungkin akan melakukannya lagi. Terima kasih untuk mendengarkan, terima kasih untuk membaca, terima kasih untuk ada dan tidak melakukan apa-apa. Terima kasih.

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